I went to another country all by myself. I went to a therapist that fixed all my problems. I stopped eating sugar. I changed my last name to my mother's last name. Best thing I've ever done.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Next year's will be: Whine less. Be less negative. Stay calm. Stay away from sugar/snacks. And only focusing on one guy, and one guy only.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
My grandfather. He died the happiest, sunniest day/night of my life. Irony sucks.
5. What countries did you visit?
France and Tunisia. France was lovely. Tunisia was not.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Energy. More than one meal a day. The ability to chill the fuck out whenever something happens that I can't control.
7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
9 February - just knowing that I could
16 October - greatest birthday dinner ever
14 May - I was my grandfather's girl
19 July - Fredrik in Stockholm
4 June - Bruce Springsteen
14 February - sacrificed Gustaf Skarsgård look-a-like for someone else's semi-happiness. On friggin' Valentine's Day.
1 August - the perfect night out
22 August - Coldplay
31 Januari - went to visit Micke in France all by myself
3 October - Detroit-St.Louis
28 February - party in Uppsala. Worst hangover ever. Gin, never again. Rum and coke, ha!
Oh, yeah, and a bunch of celebrities died. I was most upset about Brittany Murphy. Michael Jackson dying was just comedy all over. Especially this cracked me up for several minutes.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
The whole realization that I'm not doing anything wrong and that all my neuroses are pretty much my dad's fault.
Getting a well-deserved pay raise at work.
I completed the SAT (Högskoleprovet) and didn't suck.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Applying to the course I was interested in, just to be told that it wasn't at all what I had thought it was.
Getting over the post traumatic stress, including the failed robbery drills at work. I get it. Make it stop now.
I didn't handle alcohol too well (and it didn't handle me too well either, thanks to the fucker who spiked my drink).
I also tried to be nicer. I don't think it worked out well.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Once every month on almost the same day I got a fever. It stopped in June. Then I got a repetitive motion injury in my right hand. Considering what I do for a living, it did not come in handy.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I didn't buy much other than necessities. I like my chess board from Tunisia though, but it's not very useful.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Behavior I'm not sure about, but Kristine saved my career with tons of advice. I even have a motivational post-it of one of her quotes in my locker. That's worth celebrating.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Sloppy, co-dependent people. And guys in general, as usual.
14. Where did most of your money go?
To savings, alcohol, skin care products and bills.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
May 14, until it turned out that my grandfather died the same day.
The Coldplay concert (Green Eyes in particular).
The party at work in February. Twisting with the boy I like.
Seeing the Red Wings live in Globen. I don't care if they lost. It's among the Top 5 Moments of my life. And I'm not sure what the other four could be off the top of my head.
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Love Story - Taylor Swift
Love Really Hurts Without You - Billy Ocean
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Miley Cyrus
The Scientist - Coldplay
Yellow - Coldplay
Twist & Shout - Bruce Springsteen
The Long Way Around - The Dixie Chicks
Stop Crying Your Heart Out - Oasis
Rock Away - Lazee
Waitin' On a Sunny Day - Bruce Springsteen
Because I Love You - September
If It Wasn't For The Nights - ABBA
Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback
Handlake Village - Takida
Over You - Chris Daughtry
Heartache on the Dancefloor - Janet
Don't Stop Believin' - Journey
Fuck You - Lily Allen
Mississippi - Bob Dylan
This year had an extensive soundtrack. I have Spotify and Glee to thank this for.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? I wouldn't call it sadder, but I was definitely more bad-tempered and bitter.
ii. thinner or fatter? I'm the same, even though I stopped eating sugar.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer, but I don't use the money for anything so I still can't afford to eat more than once a day.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Saved more money. Been more dignified. Learnt from my mistakes.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Spent less money. Been less all over the place.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
At my mom's house. We don't celebrate much. We usually don't even have a tree. And as long as nobody is shooting anywhere in the vicinity, it'll be the best Christmas ever.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
No. I fell out of love with a ton of people, though. And I still harbor my secret crush!
I only dated one guy and he was inconveniently located in another country.
23. How many one-night stands?
I'm a nun. What do you think?
24. What was your favorite TV program?
The Big Bang Theory.
How I Met Your Mother.
The Office (UK).
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No. I don't keep favorites; I hate everyone equally.
26. What was the best book you read?
It. I spent most of my vacation reading that book. I still get freaked out when I'm in the shower and convince myself that the clown might burst out of the drain.
I actually enjoyed The Devil Wears Prada a lot, too, even though it was pretty stupid. Entertainingly stupid.
I also read the Millennium trilogy by Stieg Larsson, but the pacing and editing kind of ruined it for me.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Coldplay. Oasis. Bruce Springsteen. They were all discovered before this year, of course, but I didn't start loving them until now.
McFly. Lily Allen. Texas. Alphabeat. Veronica Maggio. The Gaslight Anthem.
28. What did you want and get?
Appreciation at work. An apartment.
29. What did you want and not get?
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I watched a lot of pointless romantic comedies. The Ugly Truth was pretty good. Ice Age 3 was okay all thanks to the dinosaurs. The Dead Girl ruined me for life.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I spent it at work and I turned 25.
(Yes, I know how shocking this answer is.)
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
It would be cool if it was legal to bite people when they piss you off. Just an idea.
That the awesome apartment I just moved to was located in a better area.
That I could just stop doing the same mistakes over and over again.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
I barely bought any clothes at all. I'm saving for a rainy day. I just wore the same crap I've worn since I went to high school. I threw away my Hello Kitty panties though. Well, most of them.
34. What kept you sane?
I wasn't sane. This was the year of the hissy-fit.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I gushed a lot over Rose Byrne. Girl crushes counts.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I guess the election to the European Union Parliament, since I actually got out of bed to vote that day.
37. Who did you miss?
Same as last year, although this time times a hundred thousand millions.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Viktor. Anna. Jacqueline. Jenny.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
I can't be nice without sounding like a suck-up. I can't rebuke without sounding like a bitch. If I can't say it nicely, I shouldn't say anything at all. And smile, dammit.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
It's been two long years now
Since the top of the world came crashing down
And I'm getting' it back on the road now
But I'm taking the long way around
Well, I fought with a stranger and I met myself
I opened my mouth and I heard myself
It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself
Guess I could have made it easier on myself
But I, I could never follow
Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found
Taking the long way around
'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out